you and I

these are our trees, hannah.

dream in early spring '08

pity isnt fun for anyone.

hello old new friend,
lets pretend.
you can be normal, and I'll be the wallpaper and
-oh i thought we were just pretending
lets keep bending
or i will at least,
bending my personality
to fit comfortably into
whatever
september
lets count count down
and talk about school.
TV shows and
how it goes when
the weather changes like us
like you became all grown up
and i just keep shrinking on the inside
and expanding on the outside
and everything rattles inside the shell
thats so much bigger than i need,
for such a small slice of personality.
doctor can you show me how to
stop being,
for a few hours here and there
so I could stay out of the way,
its just a nowhere
that i could go,
when my birthday comes,
I dont want them to know.

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left: Colossians 2:2
right: Colossians 1:13

shell

the most interesting part of my life right now..

rabbit trails

Every day is a new way to chase rabbit trails
New places to sleep so the old ones
Don’t remember me.
I can be clever,
Pull the wool over my own eyes
[there’s two of them]
Us. Two of us.
Like I can dinner dish her all my blame
Keep this one clean,
Keep this one sane.
But I’m quickly running out of hiding places,
She’s catching up like a rolling wave.
And no matter how many hours
I white-wash these walls,
Like clockwork I wake up to a newly painted room
In whatever colour she happens to choose.
I’m tired of tripping on
Falsehoods of free
So give me an excuse and a weapon to wield
Rage against the Villain in me.

4/29/2008

I'll find something better to put here,